Growing up, we all have ideas of what we want to do or be when we grow up. As we get older, our dreams and ideas change and grow, and we also develop more dreams, plans, and goals for the future.
I remember always dressing up and acting like a princess when I was little and wanting to be that way when I was older. I always looked up to characters like Cinderella or Sleeping Beauty because they pulled it all together, they were beautiful and nice, and hey, they both got the guys. But more than just the looks or the man, what I really wanted was to be treated like a princess, to be admired and cherished, to be different than all the other common people who just blended together.
When I was maybe 7 or 8, the Backstreet Boys were my favorite band. I had written in my Lisa Frank diary that I wanted to become a great singer and sing with them in their band when I grew up someday. I remember the day my little sister read what I wrote and would not stop laughing at me at the time. I can laugh about it now, but I remember being completely mortified and upset at the time.
In high school, I felt very strongly that I was supposed to be a missionary in the future. While I would love to go to South America someday, I think that God also wants to be a missionary right where I am now.
Up to this point in my life, I have changed my mind about my major many times. It has gone anywhere from auto mechanics (because I want to be able to fix my own car problems), to paramedic (after completing EMT); Culinary school (because I like cooking) to education (I wanted to teach) to joining the National Guard. For a time when I was 14, I even considered becoming a neurosurgeon. This was partly due to reading about Benjamin Carson, a neurosurgeon who successfully surgically separated Siamese twins several years ago. And of course my dream job when I was little was to become an astronaut and fly to the moon.
I think the biggest struggle for me in school is that there are so many choices! There are many things that I could become very good at doing, and also many things that I would really enjoy doing. I almost wish I could do everything!
So when confronted with the question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” I just have to laugh and say that right now, I have no idea where God will take me next.
But that’s ok.
Aside from education and career goals, I also have been compiling a list of things that I hope to do or accomplish before my time here is up. A few things on my list include:
– Bungee jumping
– Ice skating*
– Donate blood*
– Sponsor a child
– Graduate high school*
– Run a marathon
– Start a blog*
– Write well with my left hand
– Scuba diving
– Drive a racecar
(* = completed!)
I remember reading about Walt Disney and one thing that I remember was that he was never without a dream or hope for the future. That’s part of what made him so successful, because he never gave up, he always kept ‘moving forward.’ It’s really important for us to have dreams too. Otherwise what purpose do you have?
Something that really bothers me is when people don’t have goals for their life and are content to waste their lives sitting around complaining. Instead of having goals and preparing for their future, they sit back and wonder why they are not successful in their jobs, relationships, and spiritual maturity.
I can totally understand that sometimes we start out with big hopes and dreams for the future, but things change and we don’t end up where we thought we’d be
I picture my dreams as each being beautiful glass ornaments. Sometimes I get to hang them up on display and delight in their beauty. Other times I get to give them away and share them with others.
But other times, they fall to the ground and shatter into a thousand tiny shards. They are taken away, never to be seen again. And sometimes they are still a work in progress, going through the furnace to become perfected before I can have them back. And it hurts. A lot.
Sometimes we can’t have what we want most in the world, but we still have to hold on to the hope that everything will work out. Never give up hope.
“Now we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” ~ Romans 8:28
I don’t understand why God allows things into our lives that can hurt so much, whether it’s the death of a loved one, a relationship, a dream, or simply a disappointment. But I know that He loves us through the pain, and that He will “never leave or forsake” us. Sometimes the only thing I have to hold on to is the promise that He is enough; He is everything I need to get me through the day.