Monthly Archives: May 2012

Faith on the Mountain Peaks

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God is so good to me.

Just last week I graduated from college after being out of high school for only a year. During that year, I traveled to new places, met new people, made friends, bought a car, sang karaoke for the first time in front of a bunch of people, went to a haunted house, and learned a second language. I have a good job, good family, friends, dreams, and more than I could ever hope for.

Looking back, it’s incredible to see how much I’ve accomplished and how far God has brought me in the past couple of years, from a shy girl who couldn’t make eye contact to now – being bolder and more confident in myself.

I don’t ever write to say that I’m perfect in any way – not at all!! I have messed up so many times and made so many mistakes. I have hurt people that I love. I’ve had my share of heartbreak and loneliness. I’ve been through times of discouragement, confusion, regrets, and frustration. Even through it all, God still loves me unconditionally and has the best for my life.

This afternoon I went to the pool with my mom and brother. I was sitting on the edge of the pool with my feet in the water, relaxing and swishing the water around. Then this little girl came and sat next to me, mimicking me by putting her feet in and swishing the water with her fingers. She looked up at me with this cute little grin and I thought, Maybe He put me here for such a time as this.

Even though I don’t know what the future holds I know He has a purpose for my life.
 I am not a mistake (and neither are you).
I don’t have any answers as to why things happen in life (good or bad) but maybe it’s just so that we can point back to God and say, “He was faithful to walk with me through it.”

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Faith in the Valley

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This week has been great – I finished up my last couple of finals and on Thursday I walked with the Class of 2012 and graduated with an Associate’s degree. My grandparents came for the commencement as well as another good friend and we were able to spend time together visiting. Earlier this week I also got to go see the Marvel’s Avengers movie. It was a lot of fun and the giant strawberry shake afterwards was an extra bonus. 😉

But there have also been times this week when I have really struggled with what God wants me to learn or how I need to grow.

I know that God has a plan and purpose for everything that happens, and I know He holds my entire future in His hands. But I have a hard time comprehending why He would let certain things unfold the way He has when those things turn out to look hopeless or seem to have no purpose except to hurt or disappoint.

I’ve been thinking about Psalm 23 a lot this week, especially where it says, “Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me.”
My own “valley” is filled with uncertainty, fear of failure, fear of rejection, loneliness, heartbreak, and questions.

It’s easy to have faith when the right answers and reasons are right in front of you. It’s easy when no one else is involved, when there are no consequences, or when you’re not required to give anything up.
But it’s hard when you don’t know what the right or the best thing to do is. It’s hard when you don’t understand all the ‘whys.’ It’s hard when there seems to be no hope, when things don’t seem like they can ever get better.

Through it all I still believe that He is with me – through all the trials, with every tear and hurt, in decision making, in the good and the bad, every step of the way – He is faithful.
If He could give the blind their sight and make the lame walk; if He could provide a wife for Isaac at a random well in the desert; if He could die and come back to life 3 days later, then He can and will be enough for me.

“Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine…to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever!” ~ Ephesians 3:20-21

Almost There!!!

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And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.
~Philippians 4:19

Here it is: the last week and a half of finals before the close of the semester, graduation (Associate in Arts degree), and summer vacation!! It has been a good semester – not necessarily an easy or painless one – but good nonetheless.

The biggest thing I am facing now is what to do next. And of course everybody wants to know, “What are you going to do? Where are you going to go? What are you going to be? What are you doing with your life?”

I don’t know yet!

But one thing I do: God is infinitely greater than all challenges, insecurities, and decisions I face. And His plan (whatever it may be) is going to be far greater and better than I can imagine or work out for myself.

I checked out the Army National Guard earlier this year after going to a job fair and talking with a recruiter. Then a week or so later, I started having knee pain while running, which was a hindrance to running and going to see what the drills were like. That option kind of seems like a closed door for now.

After completing EMT-B certification, I applied for entrance into the Paramedic program at the community college for the fall 2012 semester. I will have wait until June or July to hear if I was accepted or not.

Other options I have considered for next semester are a) work full time; b) study auto mechanics (something I have always been interested in); c) travel; or d) none of the above. As cliche as it might sound, I’m just going to trust God to work everything out at the right time.

As for this summer, there are a few things that I am excited about…
~ My sister and I are doing our first 5k ‘Color Run’ together in July!
~ Skydiving for the first time!!  (I don’t know when or where yet)
~ Spending time with my family! (road trip! road trip!)  

Another thing I am excited about: I bought my first (used) vehicle last week!! It’s a gorgeous red SUV and I love it! God has blessed me more than I could hope for or deserve!

In 9 days, I will have a college degree, a paid-for vehicle, freedom, and support from my awesome parents to go out (or stay) and do whatever it is God has for me this summer!! And I’m excited about that!