This week has been great – I finished up my last couple of finals and on Thursday I walked with the Class of 2012 and graduated with an Associate’s degree. My grandparents came for the commencement as well as another good friend and we were able to spend time together visiting. Earlier this week I also got to go see the Marvel’s Avengers movie. It was a lot of fun and the giant strawberry shake afterwards was an extra bonus. 😉
But there have also been times this week when I have really struggled with what God wants me to learn or how I need to grow.
I know that God has a plan and purpose for everything that happens, and I know He holds my entire future in His hands. But I have a hard time comprehending why He would let certain things unfold the way He has when those things turn out to look hopeless or seem to have no purpose except to hurt or disappoint.
I’ve been thinking about Psalm 23 a lot this week, especially where it says, “Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me.”
My own “valley” is filled with uncertainty, fear of failure, fear of rejection, loneliness, heartbreak, and questions.
It’s easy to have faith when the right answers and reasons are right in front of you. It’s easy when no one else is involved, when there are no consequences, or when you’re not required to give anything up.
But it’s hard when you don’t know what the right or the best thing to do is. It’s hard when you don’t understand all the ‘whys.’ It’s hard when there seems to be no hope, when things don’t seem like they can ever get better.
Through it all I still believe that He is with me – through all the trials, with every tear and hurt, in decision making, in the good and the bad, every step of the way – He is faithful.
If He could give the blind their sight and make the lame walk; if He could provide a wife for Isaac at a random well in the desert; if He could die and come back to life 3 days later, then He can and will be enough for me.
“Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine…to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever!” ~ Ephesians 3:20-21