“The Lord’s lovingkindnesses indeed never cease, For His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness.” (Lamentations 3:22-23)
All my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God
– Goodness of God (Bethel Music)
A lot of changes have taken place in the past 3 months. I’m behind on responding to friends (sorry…). I’m still recovering from being sick this month (thankful that pneumonia has been ruled out). I’m still trying to get our house in order after the move, and adjust to being farther away from the city. I would have been 20 weeks pregnant this week…and the sadness/guilt hits in waves.
I feel inadequate. Like I’m just always stuck a little bit behind where I want to be. Trying to keep up with my personal Bible reading and quiet time. Trying to figure out my place in a new town, new church, new neighborhood. Trying to figure out how to be a good mom and wife and friend. Trying to prioritize and balance it all. Trying to surrender my burdens before they become overwhelming….
And I realize that I have to give myself grace. To learn to rest and receive the kindness of others without the need to reciprocate. To ask for help when I need it. I realize this is exactly why I need Jesus.
My consolation through this season of life is that God is faithful. He is gracious and unchanging, regardless of the unpacked boxes throughout the house and the chaos that threatens to invade my heart and mind. He is not confused or tired or unsure of how to take care of us. He doesn’t expect us to come to Him when we feel adequate or “good enough.” He just wants us to come unto Him as we are, with our brokenness, weakness and willingness to sit at His feet and follow where He leads. He is good.
“Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, I will also help you, I will also uphold you with My righteous right hand.” (Isaiah 41:10)
Alabaré al Señor mi Dios
Tu nombre yo proclamaré
Eternamente te cantaré
Señor, Señor mi Dios
(Alabaré al Señor ~ Hillsong)
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